User blog:Holokami/Letters: My Beloved Sister

''Misfortune has befallen me so very often. From the very start, fate appears to have taken a disliking to me of the kind I could never understand. In its cruellest ploy so far, it has decided it wishes to come for me all at once.''

''My precious sister. My time is shortly approaching. A time when I lie in bed in a hospital, bound to machinery as the world attempts to fix what cannot be fixed.''

''Yet... I do not fear my passing. It is both a blessing and a curse to know the time and place where my eyes shall witness this world for the final time. I have been given a time to prepare like others do not have.''

''My dearest sister. I fear not the scythe, the coffin, the gates, or whatever lies beyond this life… What I fear is that I shall have failed you as a sister, with no chance to win back the trust you had once always placed in me so innocently, so sincerely.''

''My dearest sister. I have failed you on many counts. For what you are about to go through because of me, I desire only for you to despise me. Knock me off the pedestal on which you placed me so high, and put there someone worthy of the wonder in your heart.''

''My dearest sister. I know that one day, after my passing, you shall read this letter. I know that one day you will suffer. I know that one day you will change from the innocent girl I pushed on the swing in the park. I know that one day you will no longer need me. My greatest regret is that I cannot be there to see that time when I need rely on you...''

''My dearest sister. Know that despite whoever you have become, whatever you have achieved, despite whatever choices you make, whatever world you create. Know that even if you hate me. Know that even if you have forgotten me, or choose not to remember. Know that even if you have shunned me from your heart for failing you time and time again. Know that whatever happens from this moment on. Know that I will always love you... my precious little sister.''

''My beloved sister. I wish for you only the best life you can possibly live. A life without hardships or struggles. A life of love and friendship, of hope and joy. A life surrounded and guided by those who care for you deeply.''

A life without me.

So for the final time… Goodbye, Lumi, my beloved little sister.