{{Quote|You know... I hear what you all say about me. And it's fine. Honestly, I've been hearing this question since this all started... hell, I even heard it from my kids. "Is Dada a good guy... or a bad guy?" I get it. I do. I know i can be... you know... a little erratic. I've been on both sides of the line so many times even I can't keep track. It's a fair question is what I'm trying to say. And the answer... I don't know. It's not easy... when this all started... when I first fell, I... Lord help me, I thought-- I thought I was doing the right thing. I genuinely thought that killing Michael was the right thing to do. I honestly did. And looking back at it now... God... what was wrong with me? I know. I know. That doesn't answer the question, right? But... it kinda does. You ask me if I'm a good guy or a bad guy, and, well... I mean, if I didn't think I was a bad guy when I was trying to kill Michael, how can I trust myself to answer it now? I think the truth is that I... I so want to be. I want people to look at me the way they look at him. At father, God. I've seen it. They see him, and they know everything is going to be okay. They look at me and... I don't know. Maybe I don't think I'm good enough of a guy to be a good guy. But... I'm trying. Every day.|Samael}}
